Saturday, January 06, 2007

Why am I so shy?

I have realized through my experiences in highschool that I am a really shy person. There are different things that make me shy, and I think that I will explore these things. I really like to watch people, and just observe different things about this. Most of the time I would rather do this then talk to people. Lots of times I don't feel that I have anything to say to people also. I can never just think of anything creative, and I am afraid of sounding stupid. So I just stand back and be a shy person. I am only shy around people I don't know. When I am around my friends I can be wild and crazy. I am funny, and I know all the right things to stay. But when one person comes around me that I don't know I automatically hide in my own little shell. I am afraid of being rejected and looked down upon. So I don't really talk unless I want to, but most of the time I just nod and smile. I have tried harder lately to be more outgoing. But it can be hard to me, because I don't really like to just talk and talk I like to watch and observe people. I think that I am shy is because I am afraid of being rejected by others. I know that my friends wont turn me away so I am not shy around them. I like to meet new people, it just takes me a long time to get to know them, and not be shy.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

We love you just how you are Jessica! You're so fun to be around! You're AWESOME!

Anonymous said...

I think that you are a wise women! Because when you don't have anything to say, you don't say anything! wow! if only more people would do that! You are very good at noticing other people and seeing when they are having a bad day-even when some people can't see. I think that you are Amazing and I think that we should do more stuff together.