Drill Team

Some people might think that drill is a big joke. I have to admit that I used to one of these people. I always thought that drill was stupid and such an easy sport, with these girly girls who wore tight skimpy outfit. I was very wrong however. Recently I had the opportunity to be apart of the dance company at the school and participate in their drill competition. I thought that it was going to be really stupid. I wasn't really excited at first. I had to come early in the mornings and stay late after school. For one practice we went to uvsc and wached a competition. All the other schools were really amazing. They were all so uniform and perfect. Plus the stuff they did wasn't easy at all. I was really impressed and my impressions of drill started to change. It takes a lot of hard work to do drill. Not only do you have to practice the routine over and over. you have to have every element of that routine uniform. All the feet and hads have to match perfectly or the judges will mark you down. They are really picky. Plus when you put that much precision and energy into your dance it can be really tiring. There were a couple times that I thought I was going to throw up because I was working so hard. Drill team is not a bunch of ditzy girls, it is made up of really smart hard working girls. It can be just as hard or even harder as any other sport. Plus it isn't just a bunch a people running around with a ball it is true art.

Sit in the corner and cry day

When something stressful happens in life why is it that durring that time everything else has to go wrong. It all seems to happen at once. For the most part it is tolerable, but it would be so much better if it all came in small segmants. But why does it all have to pile up at once. For example this week at school is the end of the term. So all the teachers think that they have to give finals, and know I have a million test and absolutely no time to study due to work, and dance. I would usually have more time, but this dance thing that i am in has a performance on friday so it is practice, practice, practice. It all seems to happen at once. One reason I think this is so is because teacher think that their class should be top priority and don't consider everything else. Sometimes I think it would be nice if some teacher gave test the week before the end of the semster. Just spread the stress out. High school student have so much to deal with it can be very hard at times. Also I think that it is given to us so we can learn how to handle pressure, and stress. This can be a good learning experience, but it can also be bad for students health. It is days and weeks like this that I want to sit in a corner and cry. Sometimes if I do this it realises a lot of pressure, and I can get my work done. Life can be hard and sometimes everything bad seems to happen all at once. It can be hard to deal with, but somehow everything is accomplished. It takes a lot of learning and pressure, but it can be a good experience. (don't ask me how, but in the long run I know it will pay off) So here I am writing this blog which is necessary for my grade when I should be studying for the five more test I have this week. Maybe after I cry in a corner I will know where to begin.

Why am I so shy?

I have realized through my experiences in highschool that I am a really shy person. There are different things that make me shy, and I think that I will explore these things. I really like to watch people, and just observe different things about this. Most of the time I would rather do this then talk to people. Lots of times I don't feel that I have anything to say to people also. I can never just think of anything creative, and I am afraid of sounding stupid. So I just stand back and be a shy person. I am only shy around people I don't know. When I am around my friends I can be wild and crazy. I am funny, and I know all the right things to stay. But when one person comes around me that I don't know I automatically hide in my own little shell. I am afraid of being rejected and looked down upon. So I don't really talk unless I want to, but most of the time I just nod and smile. I have tried harder lately to be more outgoing. But it can be hard to me, because I don't really like to just talk and talk I like to watch and observe people. I think that I am shy is because I am afraid of being rejected by others. I know that my friends wont turn me away so I am not shy around them. I like to meet new people, it just takes me a long time to get to know them, and not be shy.

I don't mean to offend anyone but.....

The other day I read something and at the end of it is said I hope I don't offend anyone, I know it might sound stupid but this was somewhat hurtful to me. So I asked the question if someone knows what they are going to say might offend anyone why do they say it. It is just another excuss for justifing being mean. I know that their are some instances where it is oppropiate to say this. But most of the time I really don't like it when people say this. It is kind of like saying just kidding when you really mean it. If you know that you are going to offend someone you probably shouldn't say it anyways. like of the movie Bambi "if you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all."